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108 “30 Day Writing Challenge” Day 18

30 Facts about Myself

1. Suka banget nasi kotak. Jadi setiap nyokap ke kondangan/arisan, jatah nasi kotaknya disimpen buat gue.

2. Luluh sama cowo yang memancarkan aura bertanggungjawab. Makanya gue klepek-klepek gak karuan sama Yunho 😛

3. Tertarik sama budaya Inggris zaman Edward karena masa transisi dari zaman Victorian ke zaman modern. Pergolakan nilai-nilainya menarik banget untuk dikaji.

4. Gue cukup terbuka sama nilai-nilai modern, tapi di saat bersamaan masih berpikiran tradisional, terutama tentang seks dan pernikahan.

5. Cukup sering merasa insecure sama berat badan. Takut terlalu kurus lah, takut terlalu gemuk lah.

6. Suka banget diskusi dan bertukar pikiran, dengan catatan yang diajak diskusi orangnya gak ngototan.

7. Selalu berusaha menjauhi konflik dan ribut-ribut di dunia maya karena terlalu malas untuk debat pake keyboard.

8. Gol saat ini: bisa nerbitin tulisan di jurnal akademik level internasional dan punya kulit wajah yang cling kayak idol Korea.

9. Topik skripsi gue tentang homoseksualitas, dan topik tesis gue tentang transgender. Harapannya bisa nulis disertasi tentang maskulinitas.

10. Percaya sama prinsip ‘you have to give back to the world.’ Sekecil apapun yang lo berikan, lo harus menyumbang sesuatu untuk bikin dunia jadi lebih baik.

11. Dulu punya cita-cita nikah muda, tapi apa daya belum ada yang berjodoh hahaha.

12. Pengen belajar bahasa di negara asalnya. Gue pengen belajar bahasa Spanyol, Wales, Korea dan Thailand.

13. Gampang nangis kalo baca novel atau nonton film yang ada unsur keluarganya.

14. Kata orang-orang yang kenal gue, gue perhatian sama hal-hal kecil.

15. Sering naksir sama cowok Aquarius, baik yang beneran maupun yang fangirling.

16. Suka suasana airport.

17. Bagian tubuh yang bikin pede: kaki sama rahang. Yang bikin gak pede: perut sama dagu.

18. Kalau disuruh milih kota luar negeri mana yang pengen ditinggalin, gue pilih Yokohama.

19. Tipe pemikir dan perencana, dan bukan tipe yang suka tampil di depan.

20. Sekarang gak mau terlalu investasi perasaan (dan uang!!!) ke idol K-pop. Been there, done that, dan sudah lelah.

21. My gig bucket list: The Strokes, Manic Street Preachers, The Kills, The Last Shadow Puppets, Interpol dan Young Fathers.

22. Kadang-kadang pengen keliatan kecil, cute dan manis, tapi gak bisa karena tinggi badan …

23. I LOVE LOVE LOVE TVXQ (noted, underlined, bolded: Yunho and Changmin). They’re not just idols for me, but an inspiration to work harder, to be better and to reach higher.

24. Lebih suka nulis pake bolpen biru daripada hitam.

25. Kalo lagi liburan ke luar, selalu nyempetin ke museum dan galeri.

26. A stationery junkie!!! Makanya buat gue LOFT sama Tokyu Hands itu surga banget.

27. I don’t like seeing too many tabs in browser.

28. I think men look the best when they wear a white button-up shirt with folded sleeves ❤

29. Sering sekali disangka keturunan Asia Timur karena punya mata sipit, padahal aslinya berdarah Jawa Tengah dan Manado.

30. Gak mahir nulis fiksi, lebih pede kalo disuruh nulis artikel atau esai ilmiah.

Okay! That’s 30 facts about me. What do we have for tomorrow, I wonder … Ah, it’s about first love! 😁


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108 “30 Day Writing Challenge” Day 17

Post about your zodiac sign and whether or not it fits you.

Actually I don’t really believe in horoscope things, but sometimes it’s interesting enough to see whether someone really fits the characteristics of their zodiac sign or not.

Mine is Aries, and according to this site, here are some of Arians’ characteristics:

Aries Strength Keywords:

– Independent
– Generous
– Optimistic
– Enthusiastic
– Courageous

Aries Weakness Keywords:

– Moody
– Short tempered
– Self-involved
– Impulsive
– Impatient

About the strength first, yes I do feel that I’m an independent person. If I can do things all by myself, I won’t ask help from other people. Most of the times I also feel more comfortable doing my work individually than in a team. I don’t really think I’m that courageous though. Sometimes I refrain myself from doing things because I’m too afraid to face the consequences. I don’t really have the courage to take risks.

Now to the weakness. I can’t deny the ‘moody’ one because sometimes I can be like that. The ‘self-involved’ trait, I’ll say yeah, I’m too often

wrapped in my own thoughts. But the ‘impatient’ characteristic … not really. I think I’m one of the most patient people I’ve ever known hahaha.

Another trait of Arians that also doesn’t fit me is the desire to be always on the spotlight. Nah, it’s not me. I never feel comfortable being on the spotlight. I prefer to stay in the back and observe things 🙂

Day 18 will be 30 facts about myself. I often write about that actually (I think once in my Twitter?), so I’m gonna find more interesting facts for tomorrow’s post!

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107 “30 Day Writing Challenge” Day 16

Things that I miss:

Since I’m quite a sentimental person, I often miss people or things. I could list down all of the names of people that I miss, but it will be too long and might end up boring hahaha.

Lately I’ve been having this feeling of missing my college days. Gotta admit being in college is one of the best moments in my life since I learned incredibly much in my university. It also has given me a new understanding in seeing life and basically all social issues. I also met wonderful people there, both the lecturers and the students. I really miss those days and wish I could live them one more time.

Also, of course I miss TVXQ terribly! I miss seeing the interaction between Yunho and Changmin, I’m longing to see them performing together on stage again. But I don’t think it won’t be too long. 2017 is just a few months away anyway 🙂

Tomorrow: something about zodiac sign, which I don’t really believe. But let’s see, it could be interesting!

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105 “30 Day Writing Challenge” Day 14

My favourite movies I never get tired of watching:

Billy Elliot

Jamie Bell as Billy is really, really cute and adorable you want to protect him with all costs. I also love the bond shown between Billy, his father and his brother. What I love about this movie is that not only it explores gender and social issues, but it also expresses the importance of having supports from family.

The Assassination of Jesse James by The Coward Robert Ford

When I played this movie to my students, they thought it was too bleak and slow-paced. But I think the slow pace is intended to build the intense, haunting atmosphere of the movie. All of the actors act brilliantly here in this movie, especially Brad Pitt and Casey Affleck who could investigate the psychological condition of their characters. Some minor historical flaws, but overall it’s a beautifully cinematographed and well-acted movie.

The Dark Knight

Heath Ledger’s Joker is perfect. Enough said.

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104 “30 Day Writing Challenge” Day 13

Things I’m excited about:

I usually get really excited everytime I’m going to have a holiday or attend a concert. But at the moment, I haven’t got any plan for that so I have nothing to be excited about?? Well, thankfully, I still have! Here they are:

DC Universe movies

justice league

Batman vs Superman is the kind of movie I don’t wanna see more than once. Suicide Squad didn’t meet my expectation as well. In short, DC movies lately are kinda disappointing (*runs to avoid bashing from DC’s hardcore fans*). But I still have my enthusiasm anticipating their movies after knowing Ezra Miller will play Flash. I think he’s a suitable actor to play the younger, cheerful version of Barry. His Barry will definitely give fresh colours to the already bleak world of DC Universe. So Justice League, bring it on!

TVXQ’s comeback

The two are still in the military, and I think after September 2017, they’ll be active in entertainment industry again. I’m excited and nervous at the same time to know what concepts they’ll deliver for their next comeback. They’ll be in their 30s later so I do expect a mature, classy concept that still has the powerful image of TVXQ. 2017, please come soon!

New music from The Horrors

I slightly heard a rumour that the 5-piece band is working on their newest album, and I truly hope the rumour is true. Since Primary Colours, The Horrors’ albums have never been disappointing and always sound sophisticated.

Next topic: post your favourite movies that you never get tired of watching.

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103 “30 Days Writing Challenge” Day 12

5 Blessings in My Life


My family isn’t perfect. Sometimes we argue, sometimes we fight. However, they’ve made me who I am, and I’m truly grateful for that. I couldn’t imagine growing up with another family, and I don’t want to ♡

Best friends

I’m a kind of person who doesn’t trust other people easily, but when I do, I wholeheartedly trust them. People whom I consider best friends now are those I could always rely on, those who could understand me and take me as I am. They mean so much to me. Thus, they can be sure that I’ll always be there for them whenever needed, through ups and downs.

My enthusiasm to always learn

I wasn’t always on the top rank in the class, and I didn’t always get the highest GPA during my college days. Yet I’ve realized my strength is my enthusiasm to always learn, even after I graduated. This characteristic of mine also helps me to overcome any problem that I encountered at work. So I guess this is something that I should be thankful for, yes?

My job

I can say teaching is the job that suits me the most because it requires me to never stop learning. I’ve been teaching for almost seven years, and despite the common problems like troubling kids or curriculum disagreement, so far I still enjoy my job ✌

Food and comfortable bed everyday

Simple things but we often take them for granted. Be grateful for warm food and comfy bed everyday because not everyone can enjoy this luxury.

Next post will be about things I’m excited about! 😊

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101 “30 Day Writing Challenge” Day 10

Something I feel strongly for.

When I wrote my undergraduate thesis about gay literature, I read many books and references about the issues of homosexuality. And when I continued my study, I wrote about transgender identity in Breakfast in Pluto for my postgraduate thesis. Since then, I have this special concern for gender and sexuality issues.

The first thing that I did when I was finally aware about the issues is to reflect. Have I used offensive language to the LGBT people before? Have I in a way underestimated their life and choices? So basically, I started with myself. Now I don’t want to use the words ‘bencong’ or ‘banci’ because I’ve realized how offensive those words could be.

I’ve also written several academic articles on women’s issues that I hope will help people understand more about women and their problems. Not only for academic environment, I also try to open any discussion about gender in my class or in my social media. Furthermore, I hope to hear more about the experience from the LGBT people themselves.

For now, I’m focusing on masculinity and its relation to other aspects in life. Why masculinity? Because I think men at the same are also burdened by the necessity of being masculine or else they’ll not be considered ‘real men’. A possible topic for a dissertation maybe?

Next topic: something you always think ‘what if …’ about